All is well!

Thank you all so much for the support. I feel like I sounded a little dramatic and whiney. I am really SO anxious during pregnancy. I don't enjoy the feeling that I have no control, and all the worry, hope, and positive thoughts really can't change the outcome of things. It is nice to have a support group that doesn't think I'm utterly crazy. (Or maybe you do, and you're trying to treat the crazy lady nicely!)

I went in and met with my RE. I got another ultrasound, which showed the very tiny (1cm x 1.4cm) subchorionic hematoma. He also did a pelvic exam which hurt! It turns out that my cervix is irritated from progesterone, and a yeast infection - nice! Which is causing my vag to swell and irritate my cervix. The bleeding isn't coming from the uterus. He also said that up to 82% of pregnancies have small hematomas and may never know. He's not worried about it, and told me to stay away from google. ;) Thanks Dr. G.

I'm feeling better about it all. My doppler arrived this week, but since I'm not slim, and it's still early (10 weeks, 1 day), I haven't been able to find the HB just yet. I'm not worried, surprisingly. I have another appointment on Monday to check the infection and we'll get another peek at the baby. Then my NT scan is on February 4th.

Here's the latest photo - we have yet to come up with an "in the womb" nickname for the little one. He/she has all four limbs and a very large head right now! :)

Scared...

I've begun spotting. It started very lightly after my ultrasound on Monday, but seems to come and go. I don't know if it's related to the SCH, being on blood thinners, or worse. I am trying to "take it easy" and I think I'll give my doctor a call this morning just to let him know what's going on. I know he can't do anything, and it's just a waiting game at this point.

I just really wish that Jer hadn't convinced me to "announce" at 9.5 weeks. If something happens, I'd rather not have to go into it. Trying to remain positive because the little one was looking so good on the ultrasound Monday. Please stay, little one, we want you so badly.

Hanging in there...

I am now 9 weeks and 4 days. I had an ultrasound this morning, and everything looks good with the baby. Heartrate of 176 and measuring right on target. The tech did find a subchorionic hematoma, which of course has me worried. I haven't had any bleeding related to it, so I just have to wait it out and pray that it resolves on it's own.

I am still reading blogs, just not posting as often. I hope to get back into responding and posting now that Jer is back at work -he was off for a week and we spent most of the time doing boring but necessary things around the house!

A little bean!

There's a little bean in there with a beating heart. My doctor also did a pelvic exam and my cervix is "nice and closed". So, I don't know what the lack of symptoms is about, but I am going to remain positive. All is going as it should. The heartrate was 127 bmp, which I thought sounded a little low, but my doctor assured me it was totally fine at this stage. The baby measured right on target at 6w6d. And he is assuming that the cramping/pain I'm feeling is related to the huge cyst. Now it's at 57mm. I'm on pelvic rest to try to keep it from rupturing, and it should resolve on it's own by 20 weeks.

My next appointment isn't until January 18 due to our trip to Santa Fe next week. I have a long wait ahead of me!

When I sent the news via text to some friends, one wrote back, "Good things can happen to you, too, Tina, so enjoy it!" I know I tend to focus on the negative since it seems like I've had a "dark cloud" hanging over me the past few years. I am going to try to live each moment with this little bean positively. He or she deserves that, and so do my husband and son. They deserve a happy, positive wife and mother. Thanks everyone for the good thoughts and prayers!

The panic sets in...

I have "lost" any early pregnancy symptoms that I had. I also had some minor cramping on Christmas Day and the day after. I have an ultrasound tomorrow morning at 8:20 - they snuck me in because of the cramping. We'll see where we stand then. I haven't had any spotting, so I'm not losing all hope, but I know that's not a sure sign that things are ok. I am so envious of those who get a positive pregnancy test and can shout from the rooftops and "count on" a baby in the end. I know it doesn't always work that way, but I do wish I had a little more confidence and could enjoy this part of pregnancy. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow morning!

Ultrasound Report...

I had my ultrasound yesterday morning, and things seem to be where they should be. The sac measured 5w5d (and I was 5w6dpIUI). The tech also saw a good yolk sac as well. I can't get in next week for my follow up to hopefully see a little beating heart because of holiday schedules at my RE's office. So I have to wait until Monday, January 4th. That seems so far away. If I make it that far, I should be close to 8 weeks at that point. I definitely feel like things are in limbo right now.

Symptom-wise, things are very mild. I have some food aversion at times, and occasionally sore breasts, but nothing major. I almost wish I was puking my guts out - it would be some reassurance! I didn't with Christopher, but I felt nauseated from 7 to 12 weeks or so.

So, that's the report. We're heading to see Jer's family right after Christmas. I probably won't have much to report until after the new year. Thanks for reading!

Ultrasound Scheduled - eek!

Next Tuesday at 10:00 I will see what's going on in there. My last beta was 2193 (a doubling time of 31 hours). Hoping for a beating heart, but I will be 5w6d at that point (if I conceived/ovulated the day of the IUI). Still not having many symptoms except extreme insomnia early in the morning, but that could be stress related. We shall see...